A start..

How do I begin?

How do I get there?

Step by step, word by word, I get closer and closer, right?

Closer to what, seems to be, an unattainable goal.

I smile because their IS hope.

Now I just need to mix that hope with some perseverance and then my path will be marked out before me, right?

I'm not sure about a certain formula, or a way of doing things that will get me there.

I am sure of one thing though:

A passion. A love for writing , words on a page, pen to paper, and empty notebooks filled with possibilities. I'm sure what God has given me. A gift. A love; for what I am doing now and what is going to come of it. An excitement that God's in control of my gift, and He will ultimately do what he will do with it.

I just have to be willing...

The lovely, pure and thoughtful..

I wish, sometimes, that I would look at my life with more depth and FEELING.

That I would live EVERY moment, in that moment and not living just for what's next.

Why should I spend my questioning about why? And when? And how? When life, is happening right now.

I want to live my life with a new appreciation for laughter, lovely things, and relationships.

I don't want to worry or analyze or focus on things, that just don't matter.

The truth is, I want to make steps towards what is real, and enjoy myself.

When did I become to distant and unaware of who I am and what surrounds me? I don't want to simply exist. Instead I want to insist upon living a full, passionate life, that is not only filled with joy, but glorifies that Almighty God! I dedicate my life to Him and His plan, and I am confident in that plan.

Sometimes we have to go through the storms in life, to really appreciate when the sun comes shining through...

Listen

I live my life scared.

Why?

Is it the people I fear?

Is it love that I fear?

I live a life of purpose...

Do I?

Do I strive towards the things that matter?

Listen Child.

"When I heard your voice, and you said my name, my heart it yearns.."

~I am Yours by Misty Edwards

Haggai 2:3

Who of you is left, who saw this house in its former glory? How does it look to you now? Does it not seem to you like nothing? But now, be strong! Declares the Lord, and work! For I am with you! And my Spirit remains among you. Do not fear!

A shaking must take place..

What exactly do you have in store for me God?

It All Changed At The Cross

I can feel you calling me,

Calling me back to you.

I can feel you whisper to me,

Whisper to me in my ear.

You are desperate for me,

Show me that you are near!

Every day it gets more clear,

Why I am here. 

Desperate for you,

Hoping you will come,

And meet me here. 

He's Alive!

A stirring in my spirit,

That brings me to joyful tears.

A shift in my world,

That brings me to my knees.

A change that happens,

Because of a sacrifice,

That was made.

A voice that calls your name,

Calls you to choose life,

Over death.

Because of a choice that was already made,

It has already been established.

Define me.

Overwhelm me.

Consume me.

A connection that can only be felt through the Hold Spirit.

A connection that depends on a daily renewal of the mind.

Who are we to take control?

Let's do it His way instead...

A destiny.

A plan.

A purpose.

A promise.

An unending life...

A decision...

Your grace is sufficient for me!

Lose your life, so that you can find it.

Amen. 

Friendly Daisies

 I  wish I could say I was doing it to get attention. This three week long cold  has seemed to have gotten attached to me. "Cold, cold go away, come again another day!!" 

Does that saying work only with the rain? 

Now, I will sing the song that I sang to my boyfriend, Justin earlier today, "This is the cold that never ends, it just goes on and on my friend! Some people started thinking that it was gonna go away, but I kept on coughing forever just the same. This is the cold that never ends.."

You get the point.

After not sleeping and not eating for some time, one tends to find the little things in life that cheer you up. Last week, Justin brought me Daisies,(my favorite flower), in the honor of it being a wednesday.(Cute) WELL! In order to keep myself sane this past week, I have carried my daisies from room to room with me as I move about the house, simply because daisies are very friendly and they cheer me up :) Has anyone ever seen the movie, You Got Mail?

Licorice, reading a good book, (thanks Roz), peppermint tea in a cute mug, and scrabble, are only a handful of things that simply tend to make my day lately. 

Who knew that the little things can keep you happy when your sick at home...

Miss you mom :(

Lil Adentures

Gabby dramatically put her little hand to her forehead and allowed herself to fall over and faint. She lay still, unmoving on the inside playground floor. Her little friends, Emma and Bailey, quickly ran to her aid, the girls both asked, "Gabby! Are you ok??" No answer. Bailey swept her friends hair out of her eyes to see her eyes closed, but blinking.  "Oh no! Bailey exclaimed, "She's dead!" Emma hears Bailey but looks at Gabby to give her diagnosis. She looks at Bailey and says, "She is in a deep sleep..only true loves kiss can wake her up now!" It was their class's turn at recess time and Emma knew she must think fast. She found Brody, The little  blond haired boy running by playing tag with his friends, she went to him, tugging on his shirt in a hurried manner, "Brody!! You must come quickly!! " 

"What?" Body responded no aware of the girls plot. He walked over and looked down at Gabby's motionless little body, still playing her part. "What's wrong with her? "

Emma and Bailey both in formed him at the same time that she was in a deep sleep and that the only thing that would wake her was true loves first kiss. 

"Eww!! No way!!" Brody responded, clearly disgusted and confused at the same time. He ran back to continue playing tag. 

Gabby immediately Gabby jumped up after being unmoved for long and put her hands on her little hips, "And why not??!! She continued to run after him,  "Brody!!" 

Brody clearly was not interested. Gabby didn't understand, she was perfectly cute, just like her parents told her every day, and thats what the boys did in the princess movies she watched.

To Be Continued....